Wednesday, September 30, 2009
this post is just a post for me to express out all my anger& complain.
so nothing interesting to read.
i feel so arggggghhhhhbecause of my aunt, my mum!
firstly, i don like people to go self pack my stuffs for me without telling me,
i can accept for the reason that they just offer to help
but i cant take it that after packing all my stuffs, eg clothes,
then start to complain and grumble that i have too much clothes! etc
esp my aunt, from the first day then keep nagging that got too much clothes,
say that i should just prepare 12 sets of them and it will be enough to change alr! LOLX
then say i got so many jeans too!
but she didnt realise that i don really have skirt, so i always wear jeans! almost everyday u know! so of cos there are quite a few there! so she even commented that 3 pairs will be enough alr, since jeans can match with all e clothes LOL!
then ask me to go see what are those i don wan to wear or don like to wear then just give to people don keep buying and keep them.
but e thing is that ALMOST ALL my clothes also not i buy one can!!!
its all my mum who bought herself, except i think only less then 5 in total that i bought in sg.
i never complain or grumble on e clothes my mum bought for me, but of cos defintely, there will be some fav or refer ones, so maybe some or that 1 or 2 that i rarely touch too.
but i cant stand her keep telling that i m very lucky, then keep compare me with my younger cousins, that their mum not like mum, she don buy so many clothes for them.
but walao! i also never ask to go buy clothes alr & i always know that im lucky & fortunate to have my mum.
but wat u wan me to say or how am i suppose to show out that i know that im lucky? LOLX!
i really cant take it.
same thing apply to other things too,
my aunt even say abt my mum!
that she has too much clothes,
so she told my mum that she is going to take some from her, like those she don usually wear or too small over,
and i saw those she choose justnow, all also branded clothes that my mum only wear it once only! lolx! and hearing that my aunt wants to have my mum's clothes, she even go buy her some clothes in taiwan too & bring some too small but still new ones for her too!
so of cos those my aunt is eyeing so long alr, is taken, cos my mum won reject or say no.
but all in all, i hate being compare!
cos i also never do anything and keep compare me with my younger cousins!
so it turn out to be my fault that i have a mum that buys clothes for her children?
but they ownself also can spend dono how much to buy their own clothes, yet sometimes comes to me then say i have too much!
but also never go see what occasion that we are attending or what kind of clothes i need!
im no longer a little gal too!!! '
thaty i feel really ARGGGG!!!!!
i really cant stand all these anymore alr!!!!
Monday, September 21, 2009
i had quite a happy week cos i manage to wat i plan to do and meet up with quite a few people.
went to watch ke wei sing on thur nit with my cousins & Jey and its lovely night!
and meet up with ms tan! and my dear friends! on fri.
see PEILIN finally too! after a month of itp! hahahx
but its quite a short nit, so cant wait for tmr gathering again! xD
2nd, i mange to give that little surprise i plan! hahahx
but really sorry to let u wait for my reply and drag till so late then meet up for that short while, but really hope u like the surprise cake! (:
sat is a wonderful night too! cos i had a good good dinner at home with my cousin & 1 of his friend competing their cooking.
so had prawns, salmon (both raw & cook) and even scallop and pasta! hahahx!
they are really so good it look and taste like some 5 stars hotel quality lolx! hahahx
Sunday, September 13, 2009
here is a dedication to our MR JOJO JO CHUA!!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
and welcome to our 20 club!!! hahahx.
so hope u stay cheerful, crazy and fun loving always!!!! ((((((:
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i really donoy i start to question my heart&hesitate suddenly only after seeing...
but there are so much times that i wish & wanted it to happen,
but y am i feeling this way now, i really dono )):
i feel so shallow of myself & really bad gal ))):
Saturday, August 29, 2009
its finally friday alr!
IM FEEL SUPER SUPER HAPPY!
cos it means no work tmrl!!!!
i think i shall not say much abt my work place or anything that i experience just in this short week cos they are too much & long to be mention and im lazy to type them down here again,
so those i want to tell or share, most prob alr know abt it too!
but its like after the first day, i feel like
y cant it be the last day of work alr! hahahx (cos i always prefer going to sch)
and time always pass so slow in work,
but that sucks when u don have a chance to slack too!
and going to work makes me cant do anything after work too, cos some day by the time i end work is like 10+ pm, then i have to leave joo chait, bk to outram again! long distant also!
so by the time i reach home,
e thing i will do is eat, bath, and take down some of the stuff& time to go slp alr,( but always ended up at 2am also).
if not i will end up having not enough of slp and cant wake up the next morning!
but anw, i have conquer my first week!!!
and so happy that its sat tmrl!!!
i don care, i think im just going to enjoy or rest or have fun myself tmr!!!
so people, pls find me out on weekends or any other weekdays for dinner too!
cos that will be the motivation for me to go work everyday! (:
Saturday, August 15, 2009
POD 1 finally handed in already,
and its like dono how long, (at least 8 months) that i last went to tampinese!
went to grace house first then to peiyun house to overnit and stay up e whole nit to do pod, all the way till next day 4pm then finally handed up.
felt like some super woman like that, cos we really all stay up and not a single time is spend resting at all!
i think the 2 cups of milk tea did keep me awake alittle too. ahahx
but i was very satisfy with it still ):
cos everything is like so last min, and so many things happen in between,
and esp some ....... that really piss me off for the first time ever!!!
but not in e mood to go think abt it anymore.
so now can only wait after tue presentation and see what to do to make changes to become better i hope.
and i would like to thank all the people who had help in for my pod.
really really appreciate! (((:
and its weird when im busy, there will be and feel so much things to blog, but when i finally got the time now, i suddenly lost in words and forget all abt it alr,
so its time to go bed then.
GDBYE readers (:
Sunday, August 9, 2009
i had e worst day of my life man!
already fall sick (cough) since tue, out of no way,
super bad headach,
ystd got diarrhoea, cos dono eat wat wrong food,
but e worst is 2day my stupid mense come and join in too!
so its like all the sickness come join in tgt & i struggle the whole afternoon till i mad.
was sweating like mad out of no reason and cos of e stomach pain that after taking a pandol, it has no effect too! that neither sitting down is comfortable or lying on e bed, that e pain is so bad that i couldnt control to burst to screaming in my pillow few times too.
so i didnt eat/couldnt eat from all e way after i wake up in e noon, and all e way till super late afternoon then i mange to fall alsp with e pain and only wake up at 8pm, feeling little better to have a bath then had a cup of hot milo and some biscuit & eventually hurry start doing work cos too much time is wasted alr.
but thank GOD mon is off, otherwise i will never going to do any of my work, with this kind of health condition i had now ):
so everyone pls take care of your own health & rest well too! cos its not good to fall sick at this period!
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Hi people,
im off to Indonesia for this weekend till mon nit,
to attend my cousin wedding!
time just pass so fast,
that time i was excited to go, but not now cos its like assig rushing period and weekend is super precious time to do work too,
but anw, tickets are booked, so as e hotel.
but i hope that the dress my mum self bought for me from taiwan is good and im able to fit in and so on. really hope, otherwise i think i will just end up to have argument with my mum (if i don like it& doesnt want to wear it) or wearing bk my old dress which had been wore on these kind of family event for at least 3 times alr! hahax.
and i hope im able to use internet there otherwise its really like nothing for me to do,
otherthen eating, entertaining people & more eating then. haahhx.
so off to bed, GDBYE people.
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
im feeling super super tired and unhappy and pissed off just be4 i left school 2day.
shall not mention who,what happen or watsoever here, but when i got the time, im so going to post up my previous post! so that %$£@ can start thinking too!
anw, booking studio is starting to be worst then going for a war!
i reached at 620 or 630am 2day with sam and there are alr 6 people Queuing outside! lOL!
when the actual timing for studio booking is 830am can!
those year 2s are really more crazy then us and this is really going so so bad and crazy!
but i hope its just 2day, as other days wasnt that bad still. so here is the msg to all the year 2, pls stop pushing the timing earlier and earlier! cos its really so early that i think 1 day we all can just camp outside comtec when it close and wait till the next morning it open lol!
and im super super super tired now, but still got to do my drums first,
cos tmrl is recording, and yet i haven sent to peiyun the final one yet.
so im off to do POD now then. BYE.
Friday, July 17, 2009
Birthday!
finally met up with michelle and tanu e other day cos they finally came to my house, after like 1/1/2 yr since i move to outram area? hahahx, cos michelle drive thaty they finally come to my house to visit me too but its really really great to see both of them, esp michelle cos time pass really so fast that i have not see her for half a yr already too!
thus, seeing them is really really great and happy.
although its really a short time spent at my house, eating & chit chat & playing wil, but time past so fast yet meaningful! (:
so i shall let the picture continue e post then.
(tanu trying to light up the candle for me,but she told me that just now was too rush& last min alr so can only get this, dono wat to buy 4me, but this slice is her fav lolx! haxi! wat a friend i have rit! hahax)
(ended up i only have the strawberry only lolx)
(michelle wants to be taller then me! hahax)
(the 2 coolest gals!)
(i feel michelle is really dam cool when she drive, cos partly i still cant belive she can drive now alr! & we have know each other since pri 5 till now!like such a long time! & now we have grown up & she is driving me! hahahx& she is like only 18++,not yet 19 alr got her license alr & waiting for HER CAR to arrive next week lol! super lucky & fortunate gal! )
but so sad she say i move house, otherwise she will love to drive me anywhere! cos she say my house is too far from hers ):
(the end)
(seeing all these picture, reminded me of smt that vick told me be4, a person will/ is pretty when u smile from the heart & my smiles that day were all deeply from my heart thanks to my dearest!s & its LOVE! )
and below was another day spend, dinner at town & e food is good! (:
and i got this super BIG BOX of present! *purposely* to make me carry it around! to attract attention only!
thanks ay! make me the centre of attraction that nit!
(very nice views)
(my eyes will only big at this moment? hahax)
(lastly, we went to tcc to have some dessert,
we were very funny cos we took bus all e way to PS where orchard also have tcc,
tcc wasnt in the plan first,
but i think we make a good choice cos we met a nice waitress! hahax,
she is so friendly& funny,
after taking our orders, dono how she know or MUST BE E BOX TOO BIG beside me,
she asked me if it was my bday 2day,
but actually i wanted to tell her no, its ystd,
but she go prepare a candle & even lighter just for me, to put on my tiramisu cake! (although she say abit hard to put on it) but so sweet of her la! (:
and here goes finally to make a proper wish & nice desserts! (:
and the picture i like the most of the day! :)
so its really a great day spend although its just dinner,
but nice& special thought of the gift to make it diff,
cos without the box, it will be just even an ordinary soft toy that i have to carry it around when i receive it? or e wrapper lol,
this way did fill me with some anticipation and surprise (:
but thanks for arranging this meal with me some time back alr & u the only one! (:
to make me feel that little special on e special day! (((:
thank u my bestties! (:
but of cos, thank u all e people who msg me, or call me, or through fb or anywhere just to wish me, THANK U!
when u wish with heart, defintely i will felt it & i deeply appreciated too! (:
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
haix,
birthday is just a bullshit and ordinary day for me.
but just ppl seeing me and saying a sentence of happy birthday to me only.
i didnt felt the joy and excitement in it at all&
this is really so bad that first time im saying this kind of things here.
i felt so sad and pathetic that i even have to go buy my own cake and when i rush down all the way to the place justnow, hoping to just get a slice of cake to treat and celebrate myself,
Y DOES GOD EVEN DON ALLOW ME to do that TOO! it just something so small and yet it don even let me achieve it too!
and my mind was just full of thoughts and thinking of..... and more....
hurts me,
all the broken promises again and again really hurts me, from family to friends and those people i think are important and special to me,
im disappointed and also at myself cos maybe im just a too lousy friend,
who doesnt deserve nice treat from ppl!
but i will not and shall not trust any ppl easily now, esp guys, cos they are just jerk& big liar!
all these really make me couldnt even control justnow to tear while waiting for the bus to go home and on the bus home and even alone back home.
but i felt like a big fool crying over it now.
its the just the start of my 20 yet i had felt so badly,
and its also e only yr that i have no cake at all and no wishes made cos every year also won come true,
this day is really nothing special cos i still got to go do the stupid pam report now! ):
Sunday, July 12, 2009
2day wake up feeling something bad is going happen and unwell.
and true enough, THANKS TO ****** arg!
for my mense to come at this time, at this day,
where i pray it dont and dont!
but it just did,
to make me feeling very tired the whole day,
no mood and couldnt concentrate to do work at all,
and unhappy abt my birthday too!
and thinking of all the things i have to do now, be4 tmrl morning,
and whole day in sch from morning till 6pm class end and yet still have to discuss and do the stupid PAM presentation for tue
and also another stupid report to submit on tue!
arg, everything is so pack and cram at this day! YYYYY!!!! stupid PAM!
and thinking abt birthday, it didnt excite me at all!
everything makes me cry.... )))):
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Saturday, July 11, 2009
i am here to say how tiring and shed i was rushing madly for the arranging assig in the previous NITS as i totally DIDNT SLEEP AT ALL!
for wed nit, i was rushing madly for arranging assig and i have to say, this is the first time i controlled so much be4 the F really come out from my mouth! lol, my curse or get angry at the stupid FINALE while i do my scoring. COS IT SUCKS!
ahahahx, but i still mange to conquer it!
wed nit is really a tough and busy night that i was so stressed up but doing my work for the whole night without slacking or taking a break cos i know that i have not enough time to finish and i keep telling myself to concentrate and concentrate (:
thus, i have a cup of milk tea and did my work all the way from nit to thur morning 8am, where i really couldnt take it anymore to have a nap till 10am+ when wz called me ( and lucky she called me, cos i still haven finish lots of my work that time)
then we continue to rush rush rush rush
but everything goes hair wire suddenly at the last point when i was just extracting the individual scores out from finale and wanting to print them, everything goes bad and i have not enough time to change them properly and its just left with the printing of the final scores but there isnt time left! if the time was slower by 15 mins or so, so maybe just another 1/2hr for me, i could have rush to sch in time before the deadline 4PM to submit it!
but sadly i dont and i couldnt, when the clock struck its hand at 4pm sharp, i felt a big hit on me, i had lost to the war!
cos i have been trying so hard and come so far and its only till now that i lose to this kind of problem! hahahx, i sounded so drama here, but its really how i felt.
and same goes to wz, cos we have been encouraging each other abt not giving up and e idea of handing in late,
but unfortunately, both of us lost to this war.
so actually i could have handed in at 430pm, but thinking of handing up at 430pm and next day apply the rules of handing up late, thus i didnt print out the full scores yet still,
and went to sch to find peilin as she asked me to lend her camera.
and this is also the first time i see a recording of drum session to be done so fast and i reach just in time, be4 peilin's friend left cos he finish the recording in like 1 or 2 tries only lolx!
and thanks my dear peilin for giving the spare time to let me tune my cover song vocals too! (:
so by the time we reach home was really late again due to the recording
and i dono y time just pass even faster
and i quickly continue edit and re-do and extract some of the parts for my arranging assig again cos i alr lost 5 marks so i need to do some more properly to try to get bk lol,
but by the time everything is done and im super tired alr, its alr like 4+ almost 5am?
and its like i no need to go sleep again cos i plan to go sch to book studio for my pod then.
so i wanted to hurry print my 40pages score out and maybe take a nap be4 i go out again,
but who knows the stupid printer? com? or watever la, is causing me so much prob and even almost argue with my bro cos his laptop also suddenly got prob with the printer too,
so in e end i have to print a page by a page, (to save paper too)
i really sit infront of the printer to press print 1 and wait for it to print and flip the paper to the back and press print again lol,
so a total of 40 pages full score took me almost an hour to do done!!! lolx!
so here goes my gone case of the nap be4 i go sch,
so i went to take a shower again and get change,
but who knows after i done all that, i just lie flat taking my hp from the charger point there to reply a msg, and i fall alsp! without knowing it! lolx!
till suddenly i was shock to wake up and its alr 1030am! LOX!
i woke up wondering how come i was alsp and how it happen lolx
but this means that i was late for REMT class again! and lost my chance of booking the studio! and gone of next 3 weeks cant do recording unless i ask other ppl to help me book lolx!
thaty i was really angry and disappoint at myself,
cos i stay up for the nit and yet i didnt manage to do wat i wanted to do too lolx! ))):
so rush to sch for remt class but it ended early,
so had lunch and back to the labs wanting to do work,
but i was so tired and couldnt even concentrate or got the mood to do especially RESEARCH stuffs lol and is for such stupid and waste time module GEMS lolx!
so visit fc6 quite a few times,
met wl, dehui & ferz there and chatted for some time,
but for some of the moments while listening to them, i felt my eyes so heavy to open fully lolx
hahahx,
btw, thanks ferz for helping me to check out that stuff my cousin asked me too! (:
so after that went bk to the labs to do some research for PAM and i really did reading it ok, (unlike some unglam lady beside me, who treats the whole lab like her house lol, so happy put up her leg, shaking and laughing at the screen watching videos lol!) jahah
for those who is there or inside the room will know who im talking abt then.
but very soon, vick came too and i wasnt in the mood of doing work too alr,
happen to saw shiyun and chatted quite a while with her too and we all agree that yr 3 life sucks and esp to DMAT cos we have NO LIFE! everyday is just assig and assig!
only DMATers will experience and feel and understand wat im talking abt!
but im glad that finally this assig is down now,
although next week still got 2 more and many more awaiting behind,
but im proud to say that i mange to do the arranging and transcribe finish the song!
of cos no forgetting those ppl who help in here and there in this assig too! (((:
so a BIG CLAP to all the DMATERS! (:
so after that went to mit agm awhile since i was still in sch,
but i felt so unfamiliar and strange to be there, most prob cos i wasnt active anymore, and i dono the yr 2s and of cos definitely not the yr1s lol, hahax, i am too old alr!
but at least stil got some familiar faces & yr3s that i know too.
so after everything end, actually was asked to go dinner tgt with dehui, wl, em they all, but i felt so tired, and confirm ended up with such a big group of ppl too, thus i decided to go home,
so train home with vick and em first.
but after that we decided to have go have some bits again. hahax
and its really nice seeing both vick & em tgt, and listen to them talking,
as i told them that, its really cute and funny cos i turn left to see em's eyes, is like small when he smile, but when i turn to the rit seeing vick's eyes, its also the same! hahahx
but in fact we are actually the 3 small eyes ppl tgt then. hahaha
(3 of us trying to open our eyes big when taking this pic! hahax)(credit to darren(: )
and lastly, i already wanted to say and post this few days back alr,
cos i receive a SONY CAMERA from my DEAREST BROTHER that night as my BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!!!
i was really shock, cos i didnt say or mention to him that i wanted to buy,only got see around for sales sometimes,
perhaps maybe i always borrow his camera to use too and always rushing him to upload the phots for me too! hahahx
and although he won be seeing this ever, but i still want to say that
im really shock that he actually and really bought me 1 on his own, using his precious only 2 months itp $$ but i guess this will cost his 1 month salary alr lolx!
and sorry that i wasnt very react very big when i receive it cos my bro gave it to me at the wrong time when im rushing assig madly at nit and couldnt have even have the time to go and explore and play with it yet lol,
but im still very very happy deep down in my heart!
cos this is really too shocking and sweet and really big present i received this year lolx! ((:
love u lots! (:
lastly, i wish...
i hope...
i pray...
Saturday, July 4, 2009
school start and the first week end alr! fast!
but its unfair where other course having MST, yet we have lessons plus rushing assigs,
sometimes the over stress of assigs really make me feel that i rather just take a test& be over it, instead of everyday rushing and doing the same thing when u still cant the hell of it done lolx! and we got 2 fyp compare to other course and all individual work can! LOL! and i freaking haven started yet! don even have the demo out at this time! arg)
(im sry for the tone of the lang, cos doing cover song really *Y&*T^IU*&^%EY me! esp the drums) that is going to be due on thur, yet i still not done and even start my scoring!
really make me just have the urge to submit everything except the drums score can! really! and don care abt if the player play the correct thing ornot, cos its just too......!
and now we got another PAM presentation and another report on the concert we watched and on 14 july!
so now everything is cram and squeezes tgt that i have no motivation to do work or concentrate on making it work too and being eating non stop due to the stress!
and its all on the week be4 my bday and the week of my bday and so too! arg! wat a nice timing!
and i think the stress in me is too much that i first time felt like i become some typical singaporean that i bought this (top/dress/but with a short attach to it) cos its on sales?
or maybe i too wanting to buy a dress alr, thaty i just ended up paying it
but regret when i walk out the shop! lolx! DAM! $40 gone! and i felt stupid of myself and maybe this is wat a person will do when is alone!
but im going to give it to 1 of my friend if she likes it, if not, i will just think abt it and most prob force myself to wear it once to make it worth then! hahahx.
but now i still need to go and shop for formal dresses already cos most prob i can and will be going to attend my cousin wedding in indon soon, so i need formal dresses! plus need atleast 2 sets still!
but went to walk around abit 2day and felt nothing really interest and caught my eyes!
all the design were about the same, but i cant and don like to wear those tube dress and that left me with like no much choice on any nice ones lol! haix! how?! anyone intro some nice places that sells nice formal dresses to me then!
and 2day finally met up with DENISE! (:
for an early celebration/ treat for her NINEteen (9) birthday! ((:
with grace, sam& vick at manhattanfishmarket for lunch,
the portion is dam big! i didnt except to have 2 fried fish in a fish & chip set! and i ended up couldnt even eat e other one at all cos i was too full. lol.
grace specially choose this place cos last yr we went to fish& co, and this yr change to here,
but still let denise to eat fish, so to ....... *cough* hoping she can *cough cough* faster la! hahahx
but that refers to both grace and denise ba! hahahx!
but no matter wat, we still love u k!! ((:
and denise grow taller 2day!!! hahahx
and hope she will enjoy her birthday this year & be happy!
(only took her& sam cos they were sitting opposite me, e rest of e pic all taken by denise then)
Saturday, June 27, 2009
2days ago my room light burst and make the whole house circuit down!
i came home and on my room light, then it starts to blink and next moment it BOOM! a loud BURST and soon the burning smell came out too! its so strong and smelly that it affect the whole house, the whole circuit too!
but mostly the main switches, so only my living room light is not affected and the tv power is not, the rest are, so everywhere else is dark! and its too late to call any technician to come too, so the only thing my bro say is "OK, now everyone GO SLEEP THEN!" lolx! cos i cant do anything too!
but watch tv, where there isnt any nice show too! so i watched a disgusting and scary movie at HBO, something so near to SAW! in e middle of the nit, alone at my living room! lox!
till i really cant tahan the tiredness,,
but my room is full of the burning smell when i tried to open up all e windows alr, and blow the smell out, but its kept inside so long that almost 2 or 3 hours later, when i really cant take it to sleep, i spray perfume to overtake the smell and i die off on my bed. hhahx, luckily i didnt die in smelling too much carbon in e nit then. hahax
and supposedly the technician should come in the next day, BUT, he didnt! he make me waited for him the whole day at home doing nothing too! other then then sleeping and watching tv lolx!
and its only till at night when my cousin came home and he asked me the question: "so there isnt light still? so means we have to bath in the dark 2nit already?" then i realised that its already so late at nit again and ya! i have to bath in the dark!
i wanted to close my room door and half close my toilet door at the beginning, since my room will be lock and nobody can see anything, but i realise that if i closed my room door, everything will become even darker! so i ended up closing the toilet door still and bath in total darkness!
its ok, cos im familiar with all the things i put as its my toilet and lucky there isnt any insect or watsoever suddenly come in appear if not i wont know and would just scream! hahahx!
but i guess once is enough, and i really pity those blind people and how they survive in the world without seeing anything! its so scary! its the fear that they have to face everyday!
so we better treasure what we have now cos we are such fortunate people!
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had our 8ban gathering and dinner to have a celebration for vick's birthday on tue nit!
and we get him an ipod nano!!! (: and a small slice of HELLO KITTY CAKE! hahahx
time is passing so fast and this is the 3rd year we all celebrating his bday tgt!
but lets hope that we will be able to do this every year still after we graduate!
our dear POLAR BEAR is going to be 19 already in just few days and i hope that everything will be better for u and may all ur wishes come true! and our friendship last forever too! (:
with lots lots of LOVE!!! (((:
and finally with the new hair cut vick on his friday concert at SCH, a suit! but look like WAITER! but the most handsome or cutest WAITER then! hahahx! ((:
will upload the rest of the photos at fb soon then! (:
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
i lose my passion and my spirit at the very beginning of the year 3, when decided to do such song for my POD! how? ):
i felt super demonized, by just hearing songs this few days and the same question keep appear in my head that "WHY DID I CHOOSE SUCH TOPIC or genre or SUCH SONG to do!" it sounded so OLD! nobody wanted to listen to some OLD version kind of song and will appreciate it! ))):
i cant do a nice string arrangement even just for the intro, yet there isnt anything exciting part in the song/ rhythm or super touching feeling in the lyrics! HOW HOW HOW! ))))))))):
hearing some of the past year graduated DMATEr's work, i felt mine was far far below the standard,
it felt worst then my previous song last year.
i haven even do anything now, only got the lyrics out and the main melody? which i force to sing out of the lyrics and this is going to be my POD! OHMY! argggg!
and there isnt any lecturer left now that can understand chinese lyrics better except for 1! but how to ask!
i wanted to do a touching song but how? it don seems to turn out any now
and now everything is on the stupid cover song that im stuck with no much progress 2 weeks ago! ))):
HOW!!! ): i need to really sit down to think deeply about this and really good advise now.
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Saturday, June 13, 2009
i just realised that 2day is 13 june!
so its exactly a month to MY BIRTHDAY!
OMG! e feeling is like excited yet not really,
cos that means its my last month for BEING A TEEN! OMG!
time is passing so so fast man!
how i wish that it can stop now and im forever 19!
i don wan to turn to 20 so fast!
i want to enjoy the fun, carefree being a young teen still!
as time past, and grow older, means more responsibility and many more! ):
and i really hope and wish to have a party to celebrate my birthday this year, although its just 20, but i dono where will i be next year, so i really want a celebration.
but seeing our situation, it's e time where our assig are due and its on a monday! & parents not here in SG with me again ): , etc,
and there isnt any place that i can have function room or bbq pit that i can have a small mini gathering too, so most probably i can give up of this thought already too ):
and the hope of mostly every year's wish are already gone and don think it will happen makes me alittle disappointed in seeing my birthday coming too.
every year there is disappointment,
not cos i asked for any big present, but without being requested for anything, also disappointed me already so i think i will never get what i want for my birthday present too! ):
so i think i will just treasure my precious time now for being a teen! hahahx
before i turn into an young adult!
and don bother buying make up stuffs for me cos i received a full set of it on my 18 bday, and up till now, i didnt even use them. hahax, even when i attend specially occasion too, so it will be a waste on me for things like that.
and i really hope that our POD due and presentation will be after 3 aug,
so that i can fly to INDON to attend my cousin's wedding! cos he belong to 1 of my closer one!& i really want to attend together with e rest.
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im suppose to be in bed sleeping, but i think i went to sleep too early after my dinner, so really keep waking up & thus decided to use com for awhile be4 i fall bk to sleep then. 1st week of school holiday finish alr.
time past even faster when u are busy too.
cos everyday is like going bk to sch too ):
there were actually alot of things that i wanted to blog about, lots of feelings that i need to find a place to release out, really. but i am kind of stuck here when i begin to post.
school assig & e work load is so heavy that i almost cant breath.
suppose to finish recording my 3 recorded instruments for arranging this week, but lots of unsuccessfulness, but next week slots are totally full too,
so i now only can wait to the last week to re-record everything again! ):
and i haven even start on POD too! everything is going hair wire, out of my plan and i really hate myself for choosing such a difficult song for cover song too! ):
no matter how strong a person,
there will be a time for her to break down.
the look of strong is just a cover,
i wish i have that somebody there for me too.
e need of comfort and company that i need at times is enough already.
people are selfish during typically times too!
its e reality even they were ur good friends.
how i wish im more talented and good,
that i can do things myself instead of asking people for help.
although everything is really hard,
but its just e process,
i believe i will be strong and able to pull through till i graduate.
cos i won leave regret & let both myself and parents down too!
lastly, im glad that i still have some lovely friends,
that can let me forget everything about sch work, all e unhappiness too.
i think they were e ones that i treasure more now
cos they dont friend u cos u have benefit to them or not, but purely friendship.
thank u my dear tanu, michelle & of cos my dearest dy for making smile after talking to u all.
thank u for ur jiayou! only just saw it on my ipod.
although i donoy
&sad that y we cant still atlest be friend now
when we cant be lover.
so i think i won disturb u anymore from now already
best wish to u then!
